Emotions in Life

Day before Intern

2011-12-12T09:55:00.000-08:00

It was the night before Intern tomorrow. It wasn't a great start since I've had rashes that itch on my legs after coming back from Bali!!! Sigh.....Now everything will start a new with internship as being the first day tomorrow.

We celebrated Michelle's birthday at Michelle's house today! It was a surprise party we held for her! It was small but warm with much chit-chatting and laughter~ <3... We will be planning for much events and it will be ongoing for the gatherings guys! Be prepared!!Hope all will make it till then. New Year's Eve plans~~

Haven't met Michie in a long time. Her appearance changed a lot!! haha...i guess it was her jaws that made her looked different. It was long since we met, thus just only got to know she undergo surgery....Goodness.. Lucky she was alright with such beautiful jaw back on her...haha!! It was a fun small gathering for Michie's birthday....Then we started bragging about Korean drama's with Shu Lin and Kelly!! Anyone knows of the new Korean drama's that are nice and entertaining? I am quite addicted to drama's lately~~

Ok...back to topic...Tomorrow is INTERNSHIP!!!! That was real fast~ One week pass by just in a glimpse of an eye and tomorrow is internship. Thinking of working makes me nervous. I hope everything goes well and people there are nice and friendly!!! I hope the environment will be well and I can handle all the work load given ~~hehe...

Let's wish everyone Best of Luck for those who are interning tomorrow !!!!

I'll sign off for now and its time to go to bed as tomorrow will be waking up early.

Nights everyone!! <3<3<3

Beautiful Bali

2011-12-11T07:14:00.001-08:00

I am back from Bali just today at 8.30pm. I have went there for a 5 days 4 nights trip with my family. We arrived Bali on the 7th December 2011 and departed on the 11th December 2011.

On the 7th, we went and check-in to Nusa Dua Club Mirage Bali hotel. It was a 4 star hotel with a seaside just the moment you stepped out the hotel. I would say it was a great hotel if compared to the 3rd and 4th day hotel. =(

Upon arriving, we went on a Jetski at the Nusa Dua beach. It was a great experience with strong cooling wind and the speed of the Jetski gives it an all time adventurous feeling.


Nusa Dua Beach in Bali


Jetski Jetski <3<3<3

Looks like a bridge at the beach


Flying Fish boat as high as 5 metre high =)

Then we walk on the beach for a while and have tea time at a Nusa Dua restaurant. The food was alright and acceptable for an afternoon tea.

Nusa Dua Restaurant

Nusa Dua Restaurant opposite the hotel only

Then we went to Jimbaran for the sunset dinner at the seaside. We ordered a table full of seafood from lobster, prawns, squid, and fish with their white steam rice and kangkung. The scenery was great with beautiful sunset and colorful sky unlike in Malaysia full of pollution. I'm so going to miss Bali's beach and the environment there.

Family photo <3

Delicious yummmmmy seafooood!! <3

Jimbaran sea view before sunset

Me and my younger sister

my two other sisters staring at the beuatiful sky

Jimbaran sun setting down <3

During the sunset (beautiful)

After the sun set down the sky was still very colorful <3 it so muchieeee!!

The beautiful sunset ends the first day in Bali. We also went to Sogo for a walk after the fulfilling dinner.

The next day is the 8th December 2011.

We start the day early in the morning at 7 something for breakfast at the hotel. It was a complementary breakfast given for the stay in the hotel. The food was alright with variety. After breakfast we were all ready for the second day journey.

We started off at 9am to a Batik house having to know the process of doing the Batik.

Batik process

After the Batik House, we went to the silver factory. They show the process of making the silver jewellery. It was all handmade but super expensive!!!! >,<"

Silver factory

Then we went to the wood carving place. It was great being able to see the details of how they carve out the wood and the different type of woods available. Sandal wood was real expensive. For such small stature or miniature, it cost few hundred dollars. Now I know the value of wood in carving business. They actually have very great hand skills in carving those out...

Process of wood carving

cute turtle carving

dolphin carving

After the beautiful wood carving place, we went to Kintamani for Volcano sightseeing and lunch there. The view were exceptionally beautiful with cooling wind and a traditional Bali lunch food. It was an AWESOME day there!

The Volcano at Kintamani

Such beautiful view behind


My sisters and the beautiful view

Then after the beautiful scenic view, we went to see their coffee plantation which are famous for their Luwak coffee (Shit coffee) like what many others have called. There are also other coffees that they are famous for and we have tried 8 types of coffee there.

coffee seeds before they fry it

Luwak that eats the coffee beans

types of coffee after frying

family photo <3


8 types of coffee (traditional coffee, hot chocolate, ginseng coffee, lemon tea, ginger tea, chocolate and coffee, vanilla coffee and ginger coffee)

The coffee made us get going with the trip on to view their rice terrace at tegallalang. It was cool to see how their plant their paddy with each level towards top.

The levels of rice terrace

larger view of the rice terrace deep down <3

Then we went to the Monkey Forest which is full of monkeys! They were so scary and all around the forest!!! In the end we just took picture outside as we are too scared to go in there with the thousands of monkeys around that may grab your things just like that!!

Monkey statue in the middle of forest

Monkey that looked at my camera..scary..

the monkeys in the forest!

That ends the trip of the day for the sight seeing with the beautiful scenic view of Bali and we head back to the hotel to shower and change. We then went out to have our dinner at an Italian restaurant named Giorgia just like fine dining celebrating my aunt's birthday and my mum's wedding anniversary. It was AWESOME with the lighting and ambiance there. Food were delicious too!

Starter for appetizer

Bread as starter too!

Salmon with mash potato

Seafood ravioli

Pizza

Beef sirloin

mushroom soup

Mozarella cheese

Spaghetti Shrimp

A band that sang to brighten the atmosphere

Aunt's birthday

Parent's wedding anniversary

cocktail (strawberry, orange rum and others)

fruit punch

mocktail

Pineapple mocktail

the christmas tree at the hotel lobby

That ends our day trip on the 8th of December and we're all back to hotel for resting with their big king sized bed with the frills that covers the bed and we get to sleep without worries of mosquito bites! <3

The next day on the 9th December 2011 we started off in the morning at 9am to go for snorkeling. It was not as beautiful with corals and fishes but it was a great experience doing it. We will have another round in other Pulau's soon to have a better and scenic view of the flora and fauna's . =)

Snorkeling

helping my sister to get going <3

After snorkeling, we went to their turtle island and have a view of the turtles. They were exceptionally old and beautiful and also very very heavy!!!

family photo with turtle!

second sister with turtle

me with turtle! <3

oooohh..Live iguana!! <3

feeding the turtles

python!! scared!!

hornbills and family photo

After the turtle island, we all went back to the hotel and shower. Then we continued our journey to the next hotel and checked in at Kuta The Oasis hotel. It is a 3 star hotel. When we arrived the hotel was not great as compared to the first and second day. This hotel however is very convenient to move around and go for shopping. On the day, we were all shopping around and it is a free and easy day to enjoy the shopping malls and also the places around to shop.

Beautiful view (Don't be deceived by the outside!)

The restaurant at the hotel

Kuta Beach! <3

Then after the shoppings, we went for dinner at Gabah restaurant. It was a restaurant that is Indonesian style and have the feeling of warmth and relaxation.

bebek duck!! haha!!

Beef jawa rice!!

pork ribs! <3 yummy!!

red snapper with spinach pasta!

Indonesian fried rice

Lamb rack with fries

That ends the third day in Bali for me! It was great but the room was bad! ><"

The next day on the 10th of December, we woke up early for breakfast, then we went to the Tanah Lot Temple and have a beautiful view of the temple and the sea there!

Beautiful view of Tanah Lot temple

Beautiful sea view with waves!

The temple behind! <3

view from the top at the reataurant

family photo!!<3

beautiful scene!! <3

family photo at the other side~

me and my younger sister! <3

my second sister! ，3

After the pictures snapshot in Tanah Lot Temple, we went to the Kuta beach as it is free and easy day again! There were beautiful views at the Kuta beach!

The big turtle statue at the Kuta beach

the 3 family turtle picha! cutee!! <3

the view of the beach

second sister looking at the view

myself looking at the awesome view! <3

<3 this picha!!

my mum and I wit the sun setting down

A random ang mo lang with my youngest sister

after then sunset! Beautiful view!! <3

After the sun set down! this is scenic as well!! <3

After the beach view, we all went for our last night dinner in another Italian restaurant in Kuta. The food was awesome!! <3

outview of the restaurant

swordfish with mash potato

lobster soup~ yummy!! <3

red snapper with mash potato

lamb wrapped with handmade pasta

delicious dessert of strawberry with ice cream!! <3<3<3

That ends the day of Bali fourth day and we all went back to hotel for a relaxing night. That night it was raining and it cause us to drip wet in clothes as we walk in the rain! >< haha!! but it was a great experience in Kuta!

Lastly the last day we all woke early and went for the last time shopping. We stayed in a Ralph Lauren shop for almost 2 hours and bought 6 bags of Ralph Lauren clothes and bags and souvenirs~ Haha!! It was AWESOME!! We all each have Ralph Lauren tee!! <3. Poor dad, his money all fly and drown in the sea...heeee....we all enjoyed our trip in Bali and hope we will go to other places as well for such beautiful scene and view which help to spikes up living as an individual or family in life!! <3 The sentence to describe Bali is It is a Super Duper Great Place to be in with all the Scenic Views!!!

Thats all for the Bali experience writing!! Hope you guys enjoy reading!!!<3<3<3

Exam week

2011-12-04T07:21:00.001-08:00

Today is the December the 4th. 2 more days before Exams are over!!! Woohoooo!!! I hope I can do well for the last paper despite having so much craps with CB on Friday!!

Well, things have been going well lately for me as I managed to enjoy myself during the study break and also exams weeks with few others...=)...Group study is great with enjoyment and fulfillment. Haha!! I guess this is great despite having to eat MCD for so many days!!><" Fats!!

Despite the exams, I think when there are some quiet times, things reflect seemingly affecting my mood a little. Even so, I guessed it have to be let down in whatever reasons or ways. However the silence is something I've never thought would have happened. That are things beyond my control thus there is nothing I can do with it too...=(

Even though things have smoother, there are still times of loneliness. There is always time I felt alone~~ Sigh...Need to keep myself motivated with things so that I don't think of anything....Sometimes its just unbearable ><...Shall stop complaining and grumbling here....

Lovely as it is, after finals I'm going to Bali!!! A great place i think eventhough I've never been there. It should be an enjoyable trip before intern starts. When work comes, stressful time comes upon too!!! So for now relax and enjoy after the finals for great times ahead! =)

GAMBATEH for DM LAST PAPER!!! =))))

Motivational Day

2011-11-21T04:16:00.001-08:00

Today I went to Uni to meet my supervisor, you know what? we only meet for 5 mins?!!!! I thought there were something important that she wanted to tell us. In the end, she is invigilating for exams and is unable to sit down and brief us more. Drove to college for 20 minutes and then come home. Ridiculous~ Never been to college for such short time before and have to return home with that short amount of time. Haha~

Yesterday and today has been a great day for me. Putting all my time into reproducing the notes for SM and I'm impressed that I manage to finish 5 chapters in a day. This is one whole record for me. =). I'm about to start with EPM notes and subjects as it goes on. Jobs done by many indeed speeds up the work and complete the subject fast enough in shortest time of 2 days. This is pretty amazing. Joanne is always my best partner in doing notes, not to forget in previous semesters with Eliza, and Maggie also actually helps to speed up studying the subjects. It was lots of fun in the previous semesters. Unforgettable study memories with them. All the laughter, taught, enjoyment was thrilling.

I'm starting to get back my motivation in studies after the lessons learn for the past weeks or days. This semester have gotten me lazy and draggy with all the things I'm suppose to complete. I have no idea what gotten me into such depressing state but I'm glad I am able to come out from it. I'm happy for being able to get back the motivation of studies for this semester. It has been tough with all the happenings, but I am glad with so many supportive and encouragement friends around. They have made my day shine with just a simple greeting.

I'll hope to finish all the subjects notes by tomorrow if possible and start intense studying since then. Exams are just around the corner and everyone is getting real demotivated and tired with studies. I guess this is life. Life is full of ups and downs, enjoyment, thrill and sadness. Life is bittersweet sour. All the failures and drops makes you a better and stronger person over time standing up and face all the consequences and mistakes whether minor or major. Everyone do make mistakes in their life. That is where we learn to buck up and stand up again when we fall. It is important to stay strong and determine in whatever you do as it will definitely bring you nearer to success. Every little thing starts from the basic foundation we grow from babies to grown up adults, therefore things we learn adds up through time.

I'm having a great time immerse in books for now as it will put my mind at ease without having to think of all the breakdowns and disappointment I have in myself and in certain matters. I'll have to strive for the best with the remaining time I have for exam. At least I tried my best, I didn't give up. I believe when there's a will, there's a way in everything you do.

Let's all work towards achieving goals that was once set ! <3

Start of a New Day

2011-11-19T18:40:00.001-08:00

I was awake by not the alarm but the ringing tunes of my phone. Receiving a text message, I knew the reply has came. It was a fresh start with what I have received. I was glad you guys trust and have the guts to tell me the truth. I value and appreciate what was stated and will thus take note of it. I can never promise to show a new me so swiftly as this is not easy. As stated, time will mend things back I suppose. A really BIG THANK YOU to those who have told me whatever that was wrong. I have been like a winding road this semester if you know what I meant. Things weren't easy for me, getting tougher, more stress and difficult tasks.

With all the mistakes I have made, I learned over time. Things doesn't have to always go your way. Learn to accept others as who they are, understand, trust and respect for what it is that matters. Things will be better if I am able to do that. Giving trust is easily said than done. Passing by all the drops and fail points in my life has made me brought up being this way. Self-protected from everything that happens. I never trust so easily as how I did in the past due to the happenings upon me. I'll have to set on a journey to find back the part that I have lost or missed out. Everyone has two sides to them I believe. Its which part of it you want to be. Reflecting and understand yourself is important so that you first accept for who you are and then start understanding and accepting others. This is something I've learn for today.

Finals is approaching and with my current mood, I really hope I could buck up and gather back all my motivation and focus in studies. Tears drop like the rain for days, drowning in the rain to camouflage the tears, having done all that I'm not suppose to when finals are near. Its so hard to stop the tears from falling, rain from pouring,nearly impossible~ I just hope I could get things right back on track as planned. The finals are approaching with tough subjects and difficult attempting styles as there is an upgrade of standards in the University. I hope I could maintain everything the same, whether friendship, studies, relationships and so on. Time to wake up and face the challenging race ahead in a weeks time.

I wish the BEST of LUCK for everyone who is taking finals in a weeks time! Lets put our hearts out and do our best! <3<3<3

Precious Memories

2011-11-19T07:58:00.001-08:00

I guess it is a memorable day for me as an individual. I get to know that there are real true friends to hear me out when I'm immerse in complicated situations. Having this blog has made my life easier as I am able to spill out my emotions as I wish or had hold back for a long long time. Crying, sadness, sorrow, its time to say goodbye to you guys. I've never shed so much tears for a long long time. I guess I have forgotten the way to cry and be very self-protective towards others. Its time to let go of those grudge and unforgivable acts I have in the past. Its time to change for the better. I realize I have been very pathetic for the past months. Been very moody with things that is happening on me. I guess this is life. Will just have to move on with better determination and strength to hold on.

T1 has been a great class with a bunch of very helpful, supportive and fun friends. Appreciate that I was in this class rather than the other as I have seen group that breaks apart as well. Things are ongoing in life, shall learn from mistakes and improve on any aspects in life. It was pretty amazing life for me in Uni until this semester came upon where things start to break apart for some reasons. Losing one very important friend, not really losing but becoming strangers all of a sudden, it was heart aching. I never liked this feeling to overcome and overpower me sometimes. It is really hard to let go but to accept the fact it was gone. Thanks to Joanne and Kok Leong that hear me out, I was able to stand once more. But it was an experience of once in a lifetime. I am grateful to have known you even though I face the silence and awkwardness from you. I hope time will fade things away and things can turn back to be well and smooth.

I believe those who don't know me will think of me as being arrogant and bold. I guess it was all the drops and failure points in my journey of life that made me that way as a shield. Under the shield is still a lonely and weak creature who is foolish and naive sometimes. I guess its time to be more observant and sensitive towards others. I have been able to understand and capture all emotions previously but it seems to be lost somewhere in the woods. Its time to get back to sense. I apologize sincerely to those whom I unknown have offended or somehow have make things difficult for them. SORRY!

This semester has given me big times, many obstacles and challenges to face whether individually or as a group. I appreciate the support and understanding from you guys. Especially Joanne. I would really like to thank her for being there for me, hearing me out and understand my unrevealed feelings in whatever situation that matters. She was the reason that made me realize myself for who I am. My best sister ever!!! She has always help me out in whatever that matters. Innocent, honest and reliable sister I have had. There have been many ups and downs for the both of us in this semester. I really enjoyed working together with her in anyway as we make good partners I believe. P.S: Sorry if I did make things hard on you..<3..I enjoy those days that we both have to look out for each other in assignments and life. It was memorable days I had which are precious to me.


Best Sista since day 1 <3

Not to forget my old secondary and primary classmates that have long been friends together. You all are great supporter and great friends to hang around together. There is much memories together with you guys. Was happy that you guys made the time to celebrate my birthday with me. It was an amazing birthday!!!Memorable for me indeed~~ =).. Although its a simple dinner you guys have made my day better with all the laughter and chit-chatting that we once long haven been able to share. You guys are a bunch of unforgettable friends in life to miss. We shall catch up when time appeals to all of us again.

Tony Roma's Birthday with Bestmates


Thanks for the gifts !! <3


All my birthday Presents!! <3


Present from great friends.<3

It has been a very reflective day which I have on myself to get back the part of me that I have once lost. Thanks for being there guys. I appreciate it a lot. You'll always be in my heart...<3<3<3
Time for a change/makeover~~ =)
This time I mean it and will do it....I hope I can change for the better....Not just by words as "Action speak louder than Words" ~~

Nights~~ <3

The Truth Hurts

2011-11-19T07:01:00.001-08:00

It all starts the time I knew,
Someone a stranger till it blooms,
The closeless whom enjoy and go through with thy,
I'll never regret have known it wee.

It was well amazing from the start,
A call, text or greeting whom gain in surprise,
It soon become custom and part,
Which made whom delighted so not escape.

Things go on and time passes by,
Everthing was smooth and till whom know when,
Fading away whatever it is,
The reason whom didn't knew exist.

It was then, whom knew the presence,
For whatever reason, senses was strong,
It was as expected right from the moment,
The presence faded the closeness whom once have gotten.

Thy may felt the aesthesis of whom wanted,
For whatever reasons did not perceived nor ignored,
However knew, but took for granted,
Shrilling through whom heart that was frangible distort.

Fatigued as it is at the beginning,
Whom accepted it as a normal thing,
Then felt the greatness of presence in thy as time passing,
Longer it goes, further the distance portraying.

Its not easy nor tough to read,
Ignorance is all whom can complete,
A book with no author is not as published,
Encrypted in bosom thy never knew exists.

This is something whom dislike of happening,
For millions of reasons it gather as it seems,
Losing the once pistachio that was established,
Puff like a vapour with no vestige.

Emotions, feelings are hard to resist,
However so, will put this in pit, bottling it up and locked within,
Never wanting to break the exists,
Of once delighted, enjoyable and presence of thy.

Very brightful lighting was felt,
When whom joined the presence thy held,
Never attentive was thy with whom felt,
Unable to penetrate through the boundary that presence thy held.

Awkward as it is whom despise,
Whatever happens, thy never concern but be like ice,
Everything else blinded by the feelings reside,
Only having presence in thy's eyes.

Whom tired of being the middle stand,
Its an aesthesis that was present for so long,
Wanting to let go and be just oneself,
Now its time to wake up and stay where whom belong.

How whom wished nothing was changed,
Remain as it is from the time it began,
Hoping so that everything restrain,
Will break through borders and thus remained.

Life~Broken Hearted

2011-11-19T02:41:00.000-08:00

Since the start of this semester, there have been many craps happening to me. Getting ignored, didn't know the reason, awkwardness and so on. This has been a disastrous semester for me!! I am freaking sad and disappointed of such circumstances that occur upon me!
Why does it always have to be this way?? I never understand?!!!

Was it I that was stubborn? unpredictable or whatsoever? I have no idea. I always lose friends just like that! Since Pre-U, things happened, now in degree, the same thing is happening!! I have no intention of getting people hurt, feeling bad or hate me. but it seems it is always that way.

There is no one that can hear me out. At least shouting out loud to the oceans where the air can capture the lifeless and breathless shouts that I have for so long is great but here there is never an ocean for me. Things are getting real complicated since the day it started. We we once such good good real besties, now we are as ignorant as strangers who passed by not even knowing the name of one. IS this the end to our friendship? I have no idea.

Him having to know my feelings have stay away from me for reasons which are unrevealed. I myself have no idea what have just happened in that short 6 months duration. Awkwardness, ignorance, silence..This is making me emotional when I think of it. Can't we maintain the previous lively and happy friendship that we had? Have you forgotten all the times we had together as friends? I'm speechless.... There is nothing I can do to stitch the broken pieces together again....

Assignments this semester have made me struggle with real stress. This has made me caught up in ARGUMENTS with my members. Now I'm being ignored again for the hassles that I have made. APOLOGIZING doesn't solve everything. Despite saying sorry, I don't know what else I can do to mend it back into one. I am one very straightforward person saying things I shouldn't sometimes which hurt people unintended. I feel the lost of belongingness in a group as a whole.

Useless, never needed, Unimportant person. People forget me easily just like how the wind blows sometimes. I've lost the battle. Everything that I treasure and was precious to me was gone in a glimpse of an eye. This life is so cruel. Taking everything away from me one by one. I can't take it anymore!!!! This is suffocating~~ How I wish I will not live such life in the Uni..

All I have is Sorrow, Sadness, Disappointment, De-motivation and more...

Its better for me to stay away from everyone and be alone sometimes so that I don't feel hurt. This is very depressing. I have had enough of shits in my life! Nothing always goes right....

2008-03-17T06:59:00.000-07:00

hooi ling in waffle world.....
haha...i think she didnt realise i took this picture too...she was blurr...haha....but this picture is nice....at least im a good photographer...hahah...blek.....hmm...lets talk about her....she has a very good memory......which she can even memorize all the moral nilai in a day....WOW!!!AMAZING!!!i cant do that....she is quite smart....small sized and my mum says she cute...hahah.....she can be emo very fast.....and shes scary when shes emo....really...she wont bother anyone is shes emo....hahaa....what more to say.....a very good friend indeed...

natalie and me in redbox!!

sorrie la...so long only post up photo...i dun have the time to do it ....i dun have a comp!!!haix.......sad only...if i have my own laptop....HOW NICEZ!!if i have the money to buy one now i will surely buy one....continue what i have to say.....hmm...natalie...shes a very nice person....going out shopping out with her is the BEST!!!we have sooo much fun together shopping.....its always fun to have her around.....she has admirers too...haha...so cool.....

hmm.....theres ntg much happen in this few days....except for shi hao having problem with his gf which is now settled......then last few days i did not get to use the comp because of my sister!!she overused and my mum said the comp need to be turn off !!!it makes me PISSED!!!!haix....having sister is not good at all......such pestering......=p

oh ya not to forget about natalies problem.....thats the 1st time i heard her cry in my life......such hurtful words could cum out from a friends mouth.....i cant believe it....if its for me i wouldn't have bother he'she anymore.....its so hard to believe or trust the person who betrayed ur friendship....its just not right to do it....SICKENING!!!i do not want this kind of friends....i HATE BETRAYAL!!!!so do not betray me.....i can get very frustrating and angry at u .......if there is anything just tell me...im very open minded...i accept ppl's comment about me no matter is good or bad......^^..i'll chg for the better.....

haha...im scary???i dun think so...maybe when i'm angry then yes la...i cant control much about my anger....and i think i really talk too loudly sometimes...haha...everyone is scared of me...SOBX SOBX....dun be scared of me la...im very nice and friendly wan la.....^^...at least i have friends who trust me and worth my care for....so many of them....i really appreciate them for taking me as a friend.....im so HAPPY AND GRATEFUL!!!!friends who i can tell my problems to ....there are many too...i'm counted lucky i guess.....i have shu lin who i noe for 10 years .....gan shin,hooi ling,and natalie who i noe for 2 years....and also not to forget viviAN who always hang out 2gether with me.....^^

hmm......next i hope shin is alright.....after what had happened 2day.....i just pray she could get over it!!!we will all support u SHIN!!!hahah.....she is a very zi lian girl.....always praising herself pretty...but she is also a very emotional person....she can cry or laugh easily......her mood isnt always that good....but i will make it good...haha....hope she is alright....

haix...now im broke....having no money is a disaster...haha...i just hope i could get back my money soon.....^^.....

ntg much to say liao....should be this much 1st......

to be continued...

incidents....

2008-03-12T07:39:00.000-07:00

hmm...2day.....actually isnt a very good start of the day.....i'm having mood swings in the morning.....haha.....the whole day stuck at home....how bored it could be....haix....but it gets better by the day.....

next.....i start going online......then at 5 sumting....went to my grandma hse for dinner.....she cooked pan mee...hahha...how delicious....hehe....i loved her cooking most....always so tasty....haha....

hmm...then im back home....online again.....chat and chat.....heard a bad news.....how sad.....then natalie getting pissed...hahha....she very funny la...nice teasing her.....me and hooi ling...cant stop....shes CUTE!!! i totally AGREE....haha.....i can imagine her face getting pissed off la..hahaa.....

then we always talk about our problems....how fun it could be.....im always being the bin...now i could even spilled my thought out too....they be my bin sumtimes too.....this is the best part....sharing information and stuff and problems....hahaa....i love that.....

they are all my closest friends....other than shu lin they all....having them in my life is always a good one....they hear all my problems...and i hear theirs.....this year is such a swey year...so many relationship problem.....aiyoyo....so hard to handle...

fan sei yan man......haix.....dunno what to do...cant hurt ppl...and cant think much...haix.....too much TOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!.....what else can i do la.....

then hooi ling with tee meng.....they sure make a great pair.....always fighting and talking nonsense....she lame he oso lame....SOOO GOOD!!!sure be good husband and wife la....she soooo funny lar...hp smses all tee meng TEE MENG!!!!!!!wakaka......i will just wait and c when they 2gether......surely very loving cpl...haha....(dun angry,hooi ling if u read this)...u'll soon c a lovely tee meng and hooi ling picture in friendster....wait and c .....wakaka......loving cpl photo....

next is n and j.....haix...poor j....having such a bad incident......and even a bad mood 2day....didnt expect such things to happen to him...n is getting pissed by just chatting with him......haix.....but n is having fun i guess....haha....quite a great pair if n falls for j....this is true....(p.s:dun be mad....!!)I JUST FEEL LIKE SPILLING OUT IT HERE......SORRIE!!!!!...teasing n is jsut so fun....wakaka....n face expression....surely very interesting...^^ ..n pissed and angry expression....i would have snap a photo of it if i haVE A camera and c n now...haha...

i would like to thx all my friends....!!!..they're being such a great friend....
i never regret knowing all of them.....^^....thats all for today...
ntg much 2 say....hehe.....just VERY ENJOYABLE DAY!!!!!.....

XD

anger.....and mood swings..

2008-03-10T08:54:00.000-07:00

hmm.....i'll talk about yesterday 1st.....i did not get 2 blog yesterday coz of my sis....she snATCH comp with me....i just wnna check who on9 but she dun let....such a fuss man....sumtimes being a big sis ISNT good at all...all u get is STRESS!!!! and i MEAN IT!!!being the eldest isnt so nice after all....all u get is to do house chores,not only that....if u sis made a mistake,u r the one to be blame.....and because of that im being banned to use computer for a month......
WHO CARES..... i'll just continue using it anyways.....hmm.....thats all about yesterday's anger.....

now cum to 2day......im having A GOOD mood in the morning....went out having fun.....but there are people who aren't sporting enough.....zzz....such boring people......not only that....what we asked,they just plain give AN answer and that it.....then they shut up......there is no topic to continue with......such boring thing...better not remember it......

next,hmm....after that....came a bunch of ppl....who are better than them....sporting and talk......so much better.....the only thing is we never get 2 take pictures......such a waste......nvm...there is still the next time.....haha......i'll look forward to that....then sum peoples head got hit....haha......she dun even noe who did it...such a funny scene..... IF U DID SAW THAT.......

then.....the journey is so tiring after that....going shop after shop, looking for dresses,small coat,...wow...tiring....we go shop by shop.....i cant even count the number of shops we've been into......so many indeed......tried so many....and at last found sumting....white barebag dress....rm90..then after that we went looking for shoes......hmm...cool shoes......its being bought....then some people .....broke the dress zip....OOPS.....sorrie to have done it...hehe...(p.s:anyways,the shop people will have fixed it)......

hmm.....next we went looking for the next gown.......we walked and walked.......till we reach a shop....there are tonnes of dresses inside.....colourful and striking dresses.....we tried and tried.....then BOOM.....we found sumting that suites our eyes.....it shimmers.....and look a little cute....with a big ribbon....HOW NICE!!haha....my effort is not wasted after all... but its quite costly.....its rm136..haha....what a nice number...while trying theres sum pervert ppl looking hahha.....just kidding.....if that sumone saw this....(p.s:dun be angry im just KIDDING!!)

nextly.....someone got scolded coz of transport problem.....haix.....sad for that person.....(i cant reveal all the people in here)....those who read should noe .....hmm....anyways we all did ENJOYED A LOT!!!then our next station....food.....im sooo hungry...its 4pm that time.....i never ate anything since morning till 4pm....thats the 1st time....my stomach grumbles until i cant hear it too......*FULL*...we ate until we burp!!...haha..that was funny......

nextly.....haix....ppl emo-ing after that...cum in and seat...then start to emo....dunno what we did too....but i noe we did NOTHING!!haix.....mood like gaLS....having mood swings......i never c a guy like that b4....hmm...the we walked...i bought comics.....then we walked and walked......then it RAINS!!i didnt get 2 go back in time.....we waited for the rain to stop....then sumthing bad happened......i cant reveal....incase sum ppl read my blog.....i'll get screwed......those who are closed to me should noe what happened....^^

then.....it such a waste of money....i remember i did not spend so much...but it came out i lost rm30....dont know where i spend too...later only slowly think....then i reach home....get SCOLDED!!!that is coz i told my mum i'll be back at 5-6pm....my fault too that i reach home at 7pm...the traffic is such jam.....that i cant even reach home in 30 minutes.....we are stuck for 45 minutes....then only i reach home....haix.....

then i came online.....haha....sum ppl is sooo angry that she/he burst all the anger out....haha...chatting is fun...release ur anger...especially if the persons me...i definitely be interested to hear ur problems....haha....im kinda bzbody i admit.....but i CARE for friends.....not like sum ppl.....complain so much......zzzz...complains are not for me.....i'm more to listening to ppls problem and gives advices...haha.....that he/she has the same problem like me....haha.....being the eldest is super NO GOOD!!!!

we chatted until quite late.....hmm...about 11.45pm......then our anger was all released and we both have good mood and then we chatted happily....that was when my mood turned normal......if not i'll be still upset over the day....such a BAD DAY FOR MEz!!!lucky i have he/she to chat with me.....im so happy to have her as a friend......we both doesn't know each other long.....but we both understand each other well....that is why we all make a pair of good friends who shares problems.....we have a sister group....consists of 5 members....haha.....those who are close to me should noe who are the 5....haha.....

anyways.....im very happy in my form 5 life....having such good friends.....we share and care......and we teach and learn through each other....such a great life i had....i'm so fortunate....and not to forget i have a good family to help me in my studies.....my mum ...for english....my dad for sciences sumtimes...i have great parents actually...other than the naggig from my mum and scolding from my dad....they are good parents i admit....but add maths then my tuition teacher....pn chin isnt that bad..its just her teaching method is not that good...she should go slower then i can catch what she's talking about....

YAWNS!!!!!im so tired now....i think my blog will be for now...
i can sleep with no worries now!!!^^..except for one.....that i dun dare to say ......i failed my theory exam....haix....how to say lar...hard....^^
to be continued......

happy day.....

2008-03-07T07:03:00.000-08:00

this is natalie and me......hmm....natalie...shes a very hardworking and smart person.....she works hard in every subject....i admire her as she score goodgrades in most subjects....one of it is her mum is quite a strict person.....so she needed to work hard...and even her sis...hehe....very kiasu person...work so hard..hmm...shes in pressure.....but i still am happy to have her as a friend....shopping with her is real fun...we c and try clothes.....then we go shop......she comments on clothes we both wear...haha...its just super fun with her around.....going shopping must surely call her.....^^

FRIENDS.....they are all precious to me.....example is gan shin....i noe her when im in form 4....she change school from chung hua to seafield....i didnt noe her well when she first came to seafield....shes one of my closest friend for now....we always hang out together.....eating,playing,going ktv,both of us have the same interest......singing.....heheh....^^.....redbox is the place we always go.......sing and sing all day long......she cant speak fluent english....but she speaks fluent mandarin....thats not a problem for me understanding that coz i speaks both language...shes a good friend to hang around as we all share problems with each other.....shes not really good in her studies...but i bet she will make a good hairstylist or beautician....wakakaka....she has talent in that i guess....^^

i'll just talk about 2 friends of mine for now....the rest i leave it for tomorrow....hehe.....

today is a really fun day......i enjoy so much......i thought 2day was a schooling day.....but it end up not.....i woke up at 9am...haha....having my pleasure time bathing and then going for breakfast in klang with my cuzzie...

my cuzzie is a very fun person to be with....she always joke and make us laugh....shes also sumone who cares a lot for her mum....shes the one who changed me and remind me that i have a very good and caring mum....i do not object what she said.....she also always guide me through sun or rain.....

i and my mum have very same personality....we both are stubborn....thats why everytime we tend to get into a fight...but i do feel guilty after raising my voice talking to her.....i never apologized as i always think that im in the right.....im hereby saying sorry if she did read my blog here......

i do not blog last time as i feel i dun have the time to do it....but now,i feel that blogging is a way of expressing what u feel about the day......

its really kind of good as i can express my feelings here......
i dont really like my sisters attitude....shes always sprouding bad words towards my mum which is very rude to do so...even i dont do that....mixing with the wrong friends influence u too......that is why we are better not mixing with the wrong friends......

i found a really cool dress today....its for iu....its more to plain white dress with a ribbon in the middle.....its really nice and simple....but its rm 109!!!its really gonna cost me a bomb if i bought it...now im considering whether to buy it or not.....hehe.....^^..but i really love it!!its such a headache to choose a dress....but i will be going to sunway to choose one by the holidays....hehe...but if i cant find one in sunway,i'll just buy the rm109 want.....haha....i seen it in klang parade.....

this month my purse has a big hole..sobx sobx...need to pay for iu then the dress.......haix.....all about 200......so expensive....hmm...today im having a great time....going shopping looking for clothes.....and also chatting with friends on9 2day......hehe....such a fun and enjoying day.....

i get my friends to go out with me...thats such a good thing to happen to me.....friends friends friends......they are all so precious to me.....life is ntg without friends.......

what a happy day today......

enjoyed greatly.....XD

relationship...friendship..is problems....

2008-03-06T07:39:00.000-08:00

why cant relationship be simple??i just dun understand.....people often fight because of small things that aren't worth fighting about....love is never that easy to take it or just dump it if u doesn't want or need it...i can only say that love is build with TRUST,BELIEVE,FAITH,SACRIFICING,and TOLERATION among each other...if u have lost the above u cant maintain ur relationship.....there is no meaning to maintain it.....it will get more and more unsustainable....
i do not understand why a guy suicide over a gal....its the most STUPID thing to do in life.....life is always valuable....people should value life.....not waste life.....sigh......
people nowadays having so much relationship problems.....not only that...even friendship.....it will never last......
no matter how long u noe a friend....it will never always be the same....this is because of the persons attitude...and also friends who backstabb.....i hate that...
friends who are untrue....i rather i dun have that....and i cant take it if theres people who says snatching friends away from another friend.....this is ALL bullshit.....
friends are humans not things...they have feelings...they do what they feel like doing.....and not like a thing u doesnt like means u throw it away...it will never be that way.....good friends help those who are in need....friends just listen and then forget....or even dun bother sumtimes....i just doesnt like the way it is to have those type of friends....
it doesnt help much...they just like to complain if there is sum people who doesnt care for them....then the other friend will be the bad one...while the other one who complains...everyone will think that they are the good ones...this is so unfair......and....to me its nonsense.....
im already burning in anger now.....today is such a problem day for my friends....i need to solve friendship and also relationship problems.....
tiring......not only that....it isnt easy to be solved....and let me tell u.....being a middle person it is not as easy as u think it is....
u should try be one if u think its easy to be.....things are so hard to be solved....some are stubborn....some are understanding....some are so aggressive......
oh man....i wouldnt bother all these if i dun take them as my friends seriously.....i dun even wanna noe.....but because they are my friends....so i cared....and i helped...these is what friends are for to me....they are worthless....and priceless.....it cant be bought....u treasure them.....=p...
i will end this blog for now......im soooo sleepy......
yawns****.....

XD